Emergence in integration mode part 2

As we continue to grow and evolve as part of the transformational process, so too does our identity. The version of ourselves that we become during the process may not be the same identity needed to move forward after we experience so much expansion, growth, and change in our lives.

This means we’re forever shifting in and out of identities as we navigate this human life, because oh, what fun would it be for our soul otherwise? 

Shifting identities also means integrating the experiences we’ve had into our physical human body while being said version of ourself, an inevitable part of the transformational process.

But what happens when we’ve experienced the world so much outside of ourselves and have become disconnected from our bodies? This is where the pattern of functional freeze comes in. When parts of ourselves (our soul) leave the body as a way to survive its experience, the body learns to dissociate from the threat, if you will.

This has been me for the majority of my life. I lived in a chronic state where my body became overwhelmed with whatever it was experiencing at the time.

*It’s important to note here that functional freeze happens when the body engages in low, vibrational frequency over a long period of time and does not develop overnight or from a singular event. *

And so I became deeply disconnected from myself as a result, and dissociated from the life I was living. It wasn’t until when I was no longer undercover (I refer this to as my spiritual awaking) when I became aware of living in a pattern of freeze state and needed to thaw in order to move out of it. This was 4 years ago now, and I’ve been in a deep thawing phase ever since.

Reaching the point of thawing enough to emerge from the depths of disconnection to showcase myself to the world was miraculous, a testament to the healing I’ve done and reconnecting and repairing the relationship to myself. And although I needed to make the leap and stretch my capacity for expansion, I also needed to SLOW DOWN right afterward, which I wasn’t expecting (contraction after expansion, am I right?)

Instead, I was expecting to continue riding the wave of momentum, but my body and soul was asking for the integration of my experiences, lessons, growth, but most importantly, the creation and expansion of Emergence herself.

I needed to ‘root’ myself, which ultimately meant returning home to my body and re-establishing safety and security within it in order to thrive, not just functionally survive (freeze mode).

*It's important to note here that this act of slowing down immediately after expansion is a way that is not easily digestible nor considered ‘normal’ in modern society. There’s little room for cycles of contraction after expansion, softness and slowness after periods of leaps, bounds and continuous forward movement. *

However, as we learn to attune to the natural rhythms and cycles of life, we begin to harmonize both the feminine and masculine aspects of ourselves that allows us to operate in alignment with our own flow of energy.

Story continued in Part 3.